what you sow

Yesterday my partner Werner and I visited the small apartment where we are told his father has lived for the past four years. Werner’s uncle called a week ago to tell him that the medical examiner’s office was looking for him because his father had died. Werner was apparently the only known next of kin. […]

You can leave, but you have to take yourself with you.

When my first-born son was in fifth grade, he began having major issues with the idea of going to school every day. He made it through that school year which was not coincidentally a time of challenge for our family. His sixth grade year got off to a rocky start and continued along that trajectory for the duration of the school year, and he begged his father […]

108 reasons- a stream of consciousness ode to my yoga practice

1.  alignment 2.  learn to relax 3.  prepare for meditation 4.  build strength 5.  take it with me 6.  new friendships 7.  flexibility 8.  fall prevention 9.  laboratory for life 10.  find my safe edge 11.  digestive health 12.  become witness to self 13.  antidote for sitting at a computer 14.  yoga sutras 15.  mental, […]

a mid-summer checklist for feral adolescents

As a mother of three adolescents, my attempts at a calm, somewhat detached emotional state are constantly tested by fluctuating sensations of pure joy and total terror.  My extreme emotional reactions are usually in response to their activities and behaviors, or to recollection of my own at their age.  Outside of sitting continuously in meditation, there is no detachment practice strong enough […]

a Holy Week meditation on addiction

Condemned to death. Seeking a path away from pain with booze, Xanax, crystal, oxy, heroin.  Street drugs, prescriptions…like the mythical lotus eaters, the addicts feast until they forget their homelands.  They forget who they are.  Addiction is a scourging, it comes with a crown of thorns and a crucifixion. At first, seeking relief from pain: the […]

That awkward moment…(when you’re 46)

This morning I was wrenched abruptly out of a deep sleep by my wretched cell-phone alarm, just in time to drive my 16-year-old daughter to school.  She was awake when I went to bed and awake when I woke up.  How does she do this?  She’s in the prime sleeping years of her life!  I slogged up the stairs, puffy-eyed, in my […]

the news of Whitney Houston’s death stirs up memories…

The news of Whitney Houston’s death comes out of the blue, yet is not surprising.  Like the news of any death, it comes on a regular day amidst ordinary activities.  I was at the cash machine making a deposit when I received a text message from my boyfriend.  “Did you hear that Whitney Houston died?”.  As always when hearing such […]

my hooptie

“Hit my brakes, out slid Skittles“ – Sir Mix-A-Lot, My Hooptie, 1989 My car has a small piece of a wire hanger sticking out of its front grille that serves as a pull for the latch that opens the hood.  My car is a metallic champagne 1988 Merecedes Benz 300E.  Legend has it that the original owner of this car was the professional basketball player Detlef Shrempf of […]